Saturday, January 01, 2005
[the sequel]
happy new year! new beginnings, new hopes and new opportunities. as jaded as i can sometimes get, this time round, i'd like to start of 2005 on a hopeful note.
looking back, 2004 was rather aimless. exhausted from the mugging for A Levels, my only purpose was to relax. for the first part of the year, i was just working to kill time and earn money. perhaps for the experience of work life too. but i dont think i actually pushed myself at all, i merely floated along. school started, and i wanted to do all these things but didnt actually get down to doing it. but im really glad i got down to starting up the club. i saw myself better, learnt about my ficklemindedness, my need to be in control, and realized the need to not allow these traits to overwhelm me. one thing i regret was getting too caught up in the now that i took for granted what i had, and allowed myself to drift away from many of the people that mean alot to me. but in the past year, i drew alot closer to Him, and im really thankful for that.
resolutions are made to be broken. but for the sake of it anyway:
- not take up too many activities and tire myself out
i need to learn to prioritize and i need to learn to choose. i cant be so greedy all the time. its one thing to stretch yourself, maximize your capacity, but another thing to overdo it and go bust.
- spend time building relationships
i need to spent time with people, rather than on doing things. of course, you can do both at the same time, but to me the quality of the interaction would not be the same. perhaps the task is more of an opening, but it would distract both parties from truly communicating with each other. my idea of spending time would be like the two in before sunset. it was a mere one hour, but they seemed to have explored the universe in that short span of time. my idea of romantic and intimate.
- lose some weight
not to go on a diet frenzy, but to stop snacking and learning to understand hunger and fullness. exercise regularly.
- learn to be more decisive
recently my indecisiveness has caused me alot of problems. i took 2hours to decide on what to wear yesterday. in the end i just put on a pair of pants and a mango top, but then i bought something to change into cos i didnt like what i had worn. sheesh.
im not aiming to be a perfect person in the next year, but i hope to be close to that sometime in my life. so 4 resolutions should be more than enough.
i think 2005 is going to a difficult but exciting year. watch out, here i come!
she jumped off the swing @ 1:43 AM
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