Tuesday, January 25, 2005
[troubles]
troubles...
university applications dont seem to be getting anywhere. i need approval fr stb, but before that, i need to get the rankings of the unis. and i dont know where to get it from, unless i spend a copius amt buying e book. its been a while since ive written an intellectual essay. the only prose writing ive been doing is blogging, which doesnt count.
im putting on weight. even though i try to eat my proper meals. ok, ive been snacking on top of my proper meals. but because im putting on weight, im getting so discouraged.i cant fit into most of my clothes, and if i do, my excess flab shows too obviously. and when im discouraged, i eat more.
school sux. so far the two presentations ive had were terrible. i dont really know wats gg on in class. ive got a test this fri and im clueless abt the topics. i have zilch ideas for my individual projests, and zilch time to start on them. im pretty much a loner in school. no friends. i cant wait to get out. i will miss dancing tho. i was really bogged down by everything today but i went for rueda rehearsal, and altho i was rather cranky, it did take my mind off things. i sorta didnt allow myself to forget abt everything, but if i had, i'd really have cheered up. too many projs, not enough time and talent. i cant cope, and i cant be bothered.
she jumped off the swing @ 10:29 AM
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